Panas itu nyata seperti luka.
Tak akan bisa membunuh ketika saya sudah menunggunya.
Bahagia itu ilusi.
Membuat saya lengah dan tak menyadari kalau luka
sedang mengambil ancang-ancang untuk merampas posisinya kembali.
Dan ketika dalam keadaan tidak siap itulah, sakitnya akan terasa sekali.
Saya tak ingin terpuruk lagi.

(Quoted from “Kayla” by Djenar Maesa Ayu)

Mmm… nice quote…

2 years 5 months and 12 days

 ……………………………. The End ……………………………..

Life must go on

Duh… gue ga tau apa yg lg terjadi sama diri gue sendiri saat ini. Yg gue tau semuanya canmpur aduk di kepala kayak benang kusut.

Kesatu, gue lagi PMS

Kedua, gue lagi sakit gigi ini gigi bolong, nyut2an semaleman, bikin gue ga bisa tidur, nyeri nya sampe bikin pala gue pusing, mo marah tp ga tau marah sama sapa, jadinya nangis deh nahanin sakit.

Pagi ini bikin janji sama dokter gigi langganan, dan dapet hari Kamis jam setengah 11 siang. Semoga gue bisa bertahan selama 2 malem lagi

Ketiga, semalem di tidur gue yg singkat itu (bolak balik kebangun), terselip mimpi phopho gue. Emang sih sebelom tidur, gue sempet mikirin dia. Dalem mimpi, gue ketemu pho2 gue di kelenteng, dan gue mapah lengan dia, buat bantu dia jalan. Dan di mimpi itu gue bisa ngerasain tangan dia dinginnn banget. Trus ngobrol2 banyak sama dia, yg mana gue lupa ngobrol apaan -_-

Dah 3 malem berturut2 gue mimpi ke kelenteng, menyadarkan gue saatnya harus pergi ke kelenteng tp kapan ya….

Keempat, sesuatu yg berat buat gue, semoga gue bisa berpikir lebih bener setelah masa PMS gue lewat…..

But I gotta break this bad habit
Can’t take his bad habit no more

Arrghhhh sakit gigiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii !!!!!!!! T_T

Bad Habbit
Destiny’s Child

How many times
Are you gonna apologize about the same thing
And how many times can I take you back
When I’m not the one that’s doin’ wrong
(When I’m not the one that’s doin’ wrong, yeah)
I thought maybe if I started prayin’
That we would get better, but
When I would pray the answer would always come back to me bein’ done
But we are so hard headed when we’re in love
So I

I told myself that I would make some changes
But the more I change there’s one thing that remains the same
I can’t seem to shake ya
You seem to really have a hold on me
And everytime that we break up
We turn around and make up
This can’t go on now
I gotta move on now
It’s not the fact that I don’t love you no more
But I gotta break this bad habit
Can’t take his bad habit no more

I’m totally out of my element
Learnin’ new ways to live, while your in a comfort zone
Not even thinkin, (you couldn’t think about me) to call
And then when I get mad you buy me gifts
Thinkin’ it’s gonna solve every issue
From the girl callin my phone, to the pictures that I saw
And every time you would break up with me for nothing at all
I’ve takin all I could take (I’ve takin all I could take)
But the way I live has gotta change, oh

Let me break it down
Have you ever loved somebody
So much that you was just to blind to see
Past, all of the pain they was causin’ you
Ladies do you feel me (do you feel me)
Have you ever loved somebody
So much that you went against the right things that you should do
Then it’s time to make a change

*sigh*